Hello, it's been a while since I posted here. I want to take a moment to vent some thoughts.

Whether I like it or not, I continue to come to terms with who I am and where I fit in the world. As someone with autism and the difficulties that carries this has been a defining struggle of my life.

I hold a lot of grief toward myself. It's like there's a part of me that holds me down and clams me up, especially when I feel vulnerable. It questions my intent, desires, and things I otherwise enjoy. It q...

Lately I feel disillusioned with the way people dismiss music sometimes. In particular when abstractions overshadow the raw experience. Music invites discussions about culture, genre, theory, and personal biases, but when things like that overtake the moment to moment experience, I can't help wondering if something important is being lost.

For example, Muse - a band I liked a lot in my early teens. For me, I think they're a band that reflects this. I have always felt that their music, like so mu...

I wanted to shed some light on some behind-the-scenes stuff pertaining to the recent gig for Stimulacrum @ The Bee's Mouth, and also touch on some of the struggles I've been having with regard to gigging and my health.

The set was performed on a pair of Elektron synthesizers - a Monomachine and a Machinedrum UW, with custom firmware (X.01A and X.10), a MegaCMD with MCL 4.51, an Arturia Minilab 3, and a 3x3 MIDI merge device (U6 MIDI pro) to route everything. It was mixed with a Mackie Mix8 and r...